My story of healing: A lifelong pursuit

As I sit down to write my first blog post at the age of 36, I can't help but reflect on the profound journey of healing that has defined much of my life. It all began around 2016, and it all began with me seeking answers. As Rumi says, "What you seek is seeking you!"

I've experienced all kinds of things in my life, both good and bad. But it was a specific time when I started asking deeper questions - why, why not, how? I began to really explore my emotions and reflect on my actions.

Up until that point, I just thought experiences were something everyone goes through. But then it became my own personal path to knowing myself better and becoming a better version of myself. It was about doing better for myself.

I dug into my feelings and thoughts, trying to understand myself more deeply. In the darkness of thoughts, pain and questions, I found myself compelled to turn inward, to seek answers and solace beyond the physical world. This was the start of my spiritual path - a winding, often challenging journey, but one that has ultimately brought me greater self-awareness and wholeness.

Healing, I've come to realize, is not a one-time event, nor is it a destination that we can ever truly reach. It is an ongoing process, a lifelong commitment to understanding ourselves more deeply and making peace with the ups and downs of existence (and its not for everyone). There have been moments of profound clarity and upliftment, but also times of being completely shattered and broken down.

Through this journey, I've learned that spirituality is not all about ease and enlightenment. There is darkness too - the kind that forces us to confront our deepest fears and insecurities. But it is in those moments of discomfort that we have the greatest opportunities for growth and transformation.

As I continue on this path of healing, I am reminded daily of the importance of being patient and gentle with myself. The inward journey is a rewarding one, but it requires a willingness to fully experience ourselves, flaws and all. There is no shortcut, no secret formula - only the steady, devoted work of self-exploration and self-acceptance.

So if you find yourself at a crossroads, longing for healing and wholeness, know that you are not alone. Trust the process, be kind to yourself, and don't be afraid to dive deeper into the mystery of your own soul. Its truly rewarding!